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September 17, 2009

Day -6

11-1 am:
Ryan started the early morning dealing with a fever that was finally starting to break. It's a good thing to have a fever break...but one bad thing for Ryan is the night sweats that accompany them. Ryan spent the next couple of hours waking ever 30 minutes with horrible night sweats. The sweats are so bad that he needs new bedding and new clothes.
I had just set up my bed when he woke with another night sweat. As the nurse and I changed his bedding, he went to lay down in my bed and was quickly sound asleep.
So why is this picture special?

Since he was in my bed (and I wasn't about to go and lay in his hospital bed), I was able to sleep by him for a little bit, and for me, that meant a lot.


Ryan woke up this morning and soon realized that the chemo was doing its thing. The pink bucket and him became good friends

He was very tired and very nauseas for most of the day. The nurses have been really good about staying on top of his anti-nausea meds... but this toxic stuff pumping away into his body:
has NO mercy


He had a platelet transfusion this afternoon becuase he was low.
(platelets help your blood clot)

During the transfusion he started running a fever that lasted well into the night.
So, he spent a good portion of the day wrapped up in these:


It's getting tough...
but he keeps fighting.



Gramalis said...

We are praying soooo often every day for you both. We remember your names every Thursday night at the temple. Is your Ward having a "fast" Sunday or on the 23rd? Could you suggest a day that all that are so interested in your recovery, could fast and pray together?

Melissa Hartung

Tornado Alley said...

Well, I loved what you wrote about being able to sleep by Ryan for a little while. That is so sweet and I can really relate to that as a wife. Those night sweats and fevers sound terrible. I really hope that those can stop! Just to second what Melissa said, we're praying for you throughout our days. Our little kids (4 and 2 1/2) now can say your names without being prompted... and I feel like little children's prayers have priority to being answered. :) May Heavenly Father be there with you through these hard times and make them easier/or less difficult to bear.
With love and all our prayers,
The Varela Fam

Erin S said...

Hang in there, Ryan! You have a huge cheering squad rooting for you! Hopefully those fevers and nightsweats go away. At least you got some cuddle time with Margie, right? ;)

Seth and Julie said...

I remember when my friend was in Iraq and I thought often of his wife and child and I appreciated so much how blessed I was to just be able to share a warm bed with the man I love. The simple pleasure of cuddling with the one you love is a big deal so I am happy that you had that moment.

I love you Margie!!!! Ryan too, but today I just wanted to say that I know your burden is great too, different than Ryan's but no less significant. I am positive that Heavenly Father is so proud of the way that you are rising to meet this trial. BIG HUGS!!!

The Collard Clan said...

Its pretty crappy now...but it will soon, all be worth it. Hang in there Margie - My heart aches for you, I can't even imagine going through this with someone who means the world to you. I bet you wish you could do more for him...but I'm sure the fact that you are there, giving him a reason to smile, is more than enough.
You guys are always in our thoughts, we are praying for you guys!

The Bloxham Bunch said...

I heard about you from my sister Andra. I just wanted to let you know how AMAZING I think you both are. You are such and example to so many of us. Thank you for letting us read about Ryan. Hang in there. Your family is in our daily thoughts and prayers.

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Katelin said...

I've been out of town for a few days, and so just read this right now, and I just feel like you both are showing unbelievable strength, and I know you'll get through this. It sounds like it all sucks, except for those parts that make you appreciate what really matters--thanks for sharing those insights with us. I'm glad you can draw even more strength from each other and from all those of us who are praying for you and love you so much. You're the best.